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Restless
04:30
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i tried to make some sense of this
but all i got was restlessness
and i can’t breathe when you’re right next to me
i called you up when i got home
the drive was long and i felt alone
but you’re still there
like an angel in the open air
im so sorry
I’ve grown up since then
im so sorry
we rode our bikes despite the cold
i still feel young but I’m getting old
and the winds in your hair
and oh you’re never there
i held you close as the temperature dropped
and all these night with you i forgot about
i’m so restless here
i’m so restless
float away
i’ll be here either way
i’m rolling one up and I’m alone
i turn on your street, you’re never home
anymore
and I’m afraid
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this is love and i have had enough
I’m turning the corner down your street
this is heartbreak and now i finally see
what i was missing
so lost in your kiss, and the way you’d call me after school
to tell me you missed me
that night in your car, i don’t even wanna talk about
the things that i felt
always for you i bend myself back again
my pillowcase hasn’t held a head so gracious and fine as yours
always for you i’m writing you notes from my heart
and maybe i will never send them but at least this is a start
this is tough
i don’t know if I’m talking to much
dont wanna scare you away
your life is rough
and i don’t know what to say
but i wanna take your pain away
maybe its selfish perhaps problematic
but i want you all to myself
I’m tired of pretending
i haven’t felt this way since i was 16
and don’t you know I’ve been dying for this,
and i hope you feel the same way too
start the van, head west on route 16
we’ll bast saves the day and roll all of the windows down
slam the gas cuz our love is never ending
ill turn to you and say i love you, yes i do
this is love, ill never get enough
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you were the last thing missing from my life
and I’m not afraid to say it right to your face
you wear my shirts and I’ve got your scent on my bed
ill tell you every day i miss you cuz i do
this is the smallest mountain yet
you are the last thing i think about before bed
and the first thing i think of when i wake up
i wanna kiss you so much until my face turns red
ill pass out then you’ll save me like you always do
this is the smallest mountain yet
you wake up for work, but i wanna stay in bed with you
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Late Nights In Bethesda
03:41
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all this regression makes me feel younger
and all this tension in my back
its just begs the question, when did i get off track?
well I’ve got an answer and ill smile when you see me
but I’m hurting badly
and its your sweater that I’m wearing that makes my skin irate
so well throw out the rule book, and if i catch you
my dreams will be coming true, we’ll be off to a good start
and all that you mentioned
when we spoke
was that you liked the coffee
from this cafe
that we saw each other at on tuesday
i probably won’t see you for a long while
all night to fight
its kinda hard to be something lately
i probably won’t see you for a long while
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theres a fire on my nightstand
i could put it out or you could laugh at it
theres a desire underneath my plans
and i could show you or you could reenact
the day we met
the ways i forget
the way we were heaven sent
the way time forgets
all we were grateful for
was a chance to leave our parents house
but now theres gossip between aches and migranes
but now we have jobs and we all wanna get paid
and I’m just stuck in my bed
theres something I’ve been meaning to tell you for a long time now
and i just can’t decide whats wrong and whats right
I’m so alone and you’re still out there
too many nights I’ve wasted on things
like phone calls and cigarettes and I’m still hopeless
too many songs have been written i feel like I’m living the same night
too many drives over to some party that ill pick you up at
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sometimes it doesn’t come so easy
better yet decieving
better than all these feelings in my head
remember when you whispered goodnight
thought i had fought the good fight
we were fucked up, i was always in my head
mistaking truth for distrust
finding out both of us found our way long ago before
am i making any sense?
relying on a substance
but i can’t lie, I’ve never felt this way in a long time
tomorrow will shine bright like every time i awoke to your eyes
you sleep soundly on my chest
your house at night time three stories up snow falling were inside
staring in each others eyes
you’re 21 now never thought id see the day
and I’m so overwhelmed
kissing like teenagers, breaking bottles on the shelves
I’m someone else
i want my life to sound the way your voice sounds
with leaves flying all around
making a circle around us,
your hand tucked in my pocket now
i wanna listen to copeland with you
show you all of the things that i do
when no ones around,
you are the other half of me now
and here i am
begging for you to hold me one last time
here i am
with a list of the things you love most in my head
the sun it hits me
but its not on my side
if i can’t have you
then what is right in my life?
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It's Not Your Fault
03:56
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if we want to make plans I’m sure ill get the picture
if you decide to let go
i’m too nervous of a soul to give you all the love that you need
but i won’t be the one to let go
I’ve come up with a plan cuz I’m so tired of this life
and i want you to know that I’m trying
i can’t just keep writing these songs and never leaving the house
I’ve turned into a ghost
and all you’ve done
is mark the walls with your blood
i’m writing to see if you’ve gotten my calls
cuz i don’t think I’m breathing at all
and theres space in between your body and me
but i won’t be the one to hang up this call
its not your fault
theres an open letter
by your bedside
I’ve been waiting for too long now to get it right
anxious cigarettes and writing texts ill never send
first i wrote i love you, but instead i just went to bed
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i want to be heard
but i don’t want anyone to hear me
i don’t know what that means
but i know that i can’t fall asleep without you
i can’t fall asleep without you
next to me
i can’t sleep
we waited for days for another
chance to see each other soon (i’ll wait for you)
when i was sleeping on your couch when you were at work
i was writing this song (and now we’re singing along)
i want to let go
but i don’t think anything will catch me
I’ve heard from friends back home
that they never talk about me
but still i am so happy today
when these trembling lips press
beneath the oak tree by your house
i am warm again
our breath is in time and you are bright red wine
on a summer day
and everybody just wants to see you
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Ivy Lane
02:53
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when i felt the cool breeze
from the window on your bedroom sheets
i wanted just to wake you
but id never wanna make you
sad or unhappy
when were doing fine
and the weather makes you happy
and you are my sunshine
you are the stars at night
when i think about the drama
and all of this karma
i start to dream about quicksand
and sleeping my life away
because I’m sad and unhappy
but we were doing fine
and the weather made us happy
and you were my sun shine
but lately i just need some time
to find myself
get up off of this empty shelf
and fill it up with paintings
and things that make me feel like me
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don’t count the days
make the days count
theres pictures of your face
on my phone that you sent to me
you wanted to know if i thought your makeup looked alright
and i said it did
oh of course it did
cuz later on you’re taking a bus to the city
to come and hang out with me
its summer vacation and you’re back in town
i feel so whole now
you’ve been at your new school for the past 9 months now
and i’m too hung up on you to play it cool
you said my hairs gotten long but its not a bad thing
and you’ve gotten into poetry and I’m just so amazed
were only 16 but i swear i see a life with you
one that outshines our friends or anyone who doubts us
and when the sparkle hits your eye after we got ice cream
i decided to make my move and i took your hand so slow
you looked at me so puzzled and then you realized what was up
and then i swear my fucking dreams came true
the girl who I’ve loved since i was in the 7th grade
kisses me on tiptoed feet
when you told me you were switching schools last summer
i swear i fucking cried on that night
cuz id been building up the courage to tell you how i feel just before that school year
and i didn’t think id make it to the end of 10th grade
and i just knew i had to tell you
i knew i had to tell you
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last time i felt this happy was when i first met you
now i spend every day in your room i swear ill never forget you
i wanna be 16 forever you love it when the flowers bloom
its reminiscent of this love and I’m just trying to keep my cool
its getting better every day
i don’t know what i did to deserve this
you’re my little fucking honey bee
come kiss me under this tree
our design is mostly entropy
all our friends they don’t understand
(that were making history, that we found true beauty)
and our design is mostly entropy
last night we took a walk to the pond at around 10 PM
you said you used to come out here late nights when you needed a friend
but now I’m your guy and we can spend these nights together
drink tea and hold each other on your couch in stormy weather
and theres things you don’t know about me
but they all relate to how much i love you
how many nights I’ve spent dreaming of scenarios
where were holding each other close
and now I’m in your arms
what took you so long?
and now I’m in your arms
what took me so long?
and now I’m in your arms
what took us so long?
and now I’m in your arms
what took me so long?
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you’ve been through so much
i don’t think i have recognized the pain
that has clouded your seafoam eyes
you always look like you’ve been standing in the rain
sometimes you miss the memories
when your parents were still together and you
lived at home and you were a child
but now rainclouds are rolling in so dark
well take me to the clear blue skies
and i’ll take back a piece for you
you’re only half worried despite all the pain
which is something so gracious, so thoughtful, mature, for you to do
when you told me your father lies,
tears welled up in both my eyes
how could he do things so cruel
to his wife and a girl so innocent as you
I’m happy that you’re safe now
but a simple boy like me can’t fix these wounds
you’re back in your hometown
for the summer, but by september you’ll have to move
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i got to the point where i called and asked if you remember
the summer where we talked ever night
too young to fight about the future and what it holds
i got to the point where i made a list of the ways I’ve decayed since the
last time we last talked
four years ago coming home in the snow to your arms and hot cocoa
we made plans to take a road trip to see one of our favorite bands in brooklyn
despite the fact we both couldn’t drive, we were so young and alive
i missed you, i would strive
for your love or at least your attention
and not to mention the way i’m holding you back
the way I’m holding us back
from the tops of buildings
they’ve turned into rust
and your new apartment is too small for both of us
and I’ve got my dreams
laid our in front of me
and these old virtues
we’ve sadly misused
we had a talk on your front steps
you were shaking as your hands touched my face, but i tried to embrace the moment as it were, as the leaves start to turn, it was the end of the summer
you told me that your mom was moving you to a new town, new school, and you had no choice cuz
your dad wasn’t around and she was sick of this town, wanted her daughter to have solid ground
but what about our love? you threw your arms around my shoulders, i held you so close
as the tears came one by one, if we weren’t so fucking young we could stay here and be in love
i already told the voice in my head that you are the one i wanna spend my life with
and my heart agrees, so desperately,
every second is counted, every moment you’re away
and i can’t feel anything anymore
i took advantage of every second, of the life we had before
and i can’t love, anyone but you
(i got to the point where i called and asked if you remember)
(the summer where we talked every night, too young to fight about the
future and what it holds)
(but what about our love? you threw your arms around my shoulders)
(i held you close as the tears came one by one, if we weren’t so fucking young)
(we could stay here and be in love)
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